A.L. Radeck

2012-01-30T15:37:00.002-06:00

next WIP :D

2012-01-30T01:52:00.002-06:00

Finally getting onto painting all my characters i've created over the years. I've got way too many, but i've never really made references for any of them.

Animation i'm highly doubting it works on this site, but here's hoping!

Little promotional image for my second sketchbook being released

New music

2012-01-26T01:24:00.002-06:00

...gets it's own post.

and from the same album:

Garnier ruined an awesome song.

This song has me crooning at all hours of the day, I swear, it's a gorgeous song. Starts a little slow, but worth it.

BIRFDAAAY

2012-01-26T01:17:00.005-06:00

Today is my birthday! I'm now *cough* 25 years old. Yikes.

Done!

Something for Gaiasangel, since she did this awesome picture for me for my birthday:

WIP for onnes, that I hope to get done before i head out to dinner tomorrow. :D

and lastly, this awesome gift that my friend centra did for me:

2012-01-19T19:11:00.000-06:00

About 6 hours in, with a re-paint of about 30-45 minutes when my computers spazzed and erased all the progress

2012-01-15T13:36:00.003-06:00

Trying some new tactics for this doodle.

*wrist drops off* about 20 hrs total.

2012-01-12T17:45:00.001-06:00

+6 hours...so we're up to 8 now :D

Next iron artist done for Ravynarcadiavalos :D

Paradise! Paradise I says!

2012-01-11T14:34:00.001-06:00

2? hours in

So this image was a background of my choice...and I can't get this song:

out of my head. PARADISE. PARADISE EVERYWHERE.

2012-01-10T21:42:00.003-06:00

quick sketch for enaxn for the next commission

Finished doodle

Iron artist for Kyousuke :D

IA sketch for Alkora

Done!

Hello 2012!

2012-01-06T03:40:00.002-06:00

Doodle with a little damn feeling to it.

Update for Lanakila of his image:

First of the new year's Iron artist slots done:

2011-12-30T13:33:00.001-06:00

Laying down the colors for the next commission

2011-12-26T20:36:00.001-06:00

another people try; done a few days ago

2011-12-26T01:13:00.000-06:00

Gift for Centra

Update for sekkite

2011-12-20T14:52:00.002-06:00

Lil speedpainting

Gift for Kash w/ some quick animation

Christmas raptor!

2011-12-19T02:13:00.001-06:00

+ 3.5 hrs

2011-12-18T13:20:00.000-06:00

Lil self portrait done as practice in about 15 min

Gift for my friend Dana

2011-12-13T21:16:00.001-06:00

wip of the next commission, I plan on finishing the rooth one tomorrow.

2011-12-12T17:23:00.001-06:00

+5 hrs

2011-12-10T23:08:00.000-06:00

Simpler image, so I plan on detailing it to the 9's :D

2011-12-08T21:02:00.001-06:00

More work on Bellecandie's commission; i plan on having this done tomorrow.

Fun lil' doodle

sketch for rooth

2011-12-07T01:11:00.001-06:00

Easily the most messed up thing i've seen all year

also:

and here, have an improvement meme.

2011-12-06T22:27:00.001-06:00

Working on a t-shirt design. Applied to a bunch of jobs today :D

more human stuff. gotta get it down eventually, lol

2011-12-05T17:06:00.003-06:00

+6 hours

2011-12-03T19:00:00.002-06:00

lil side image done for fun and lighting practice.

Finished my last superbeast commission!

2011-11-30T00:27:00.001-06:00

Been in a funk/ been tired. Doodle here to help me ease up a bit

2011-11-28T18:44:00.001-06:00

Hour or so in to the next commission

2011-11-27T23:39:00.001-06:00

Guinea pig "do whatever' images are the best kind of images :D

Whole bunch of sketches done at a convention

2011-11-27T21:38:00.007-06:00

Back home, I can finally upload some of the work i've been doing at this last convention!

Sketch-tastic!

2011-11-27T01:28:00.001-06:00

WIP of my part of a trade that's way long overdue

Sketch for sekkite

Personal doodle

Sketch for rooth

2011-11-16T18:49:00.000-06:00

Random Design that I may be keeping hold of

2011-11-15T00:15:00.002-06:00

Finally done. I actually finished it yesterday, and then figured that the next few days off would help me recoup my bruised/swollen hands before MFF. So i took the day off...sorta. Finished the remainder of my pre-con work, and lounged around.
But then I found myself bored, so i went back to work, lol Next up in my halloween commissions.

2011-11-12T20:38:00.000-06:00

Last WIP image. I'll be finishing this tomorrow :D about 45 hours in so far

2011-11-08T21:40:00.000-06:00

another 1980820943 hours, I've lost track already, lol.

2011-11-07T22:40:00.000-06:00

DISEMBODIED FACES HERE TO MAKE YOUR DAY BOOP BOOP

2011-11-06T17:44:00.005-06:00

Being sick gives me lots of time to find music - ironically is somewhat about being sick and tired, lol. Also had my first day of "teaching" yesterday, doing 1 hour tutoring lessons.

2011-11-04T19:21:00.002-05:00

Random design that is not full of broken bones and organs, lol

Great aspirations to have this one finished today were thoroughly kicked by getting sick. Ack.

2011-11-03T17:22:00.001-05:00

I'm sorry, I need to profess my love for this song.

2011-11-02T21:24:00.002-05:00

Concept work. Happy cherub is happy. :D

4 hours in so far

2011-11-01T21:58:00.000-05:00

2011-11-01T00:37:00.000-05:00

A most apt halloween costume

2011-10-29T17:20:00.000-05:00

2011-10-27T17:24:00.001-05:00

2011-10-26T23:43:00.002-05:00

Why is super late at night the best time to draw. Why.
half hour sketch.

2011-10-26T16:41:00.001-05:00

Little something

I'll have this finished tonight :D

2011-10-24T17:31:00.001-05:00

Stuff I need to finish

2011-10-23T13:30:00.003-05:00

just about 3 hours in.

2011-10-23T02:01:00.000-05:00

Planning on trying to further my painting skills with this one. Fingers crossed.

2011-10-21T22:45:00.004-05:00

2011-10-20T13:54:00.001-05:00

2011-10-19T16:19:00.001-05:00

Lines for Sekkite's Superbeast monster commission

Finished one for jasper

2011-10-18T21:24:00.002-05:00

I'll finish this tomorrow morn :D Half hour of work so far.

2011-10-17T15:14:00.001-05:00

sketch for bellecandie :D

2011-10-16T23:22:00.001-05:00

Side thing for me, and some sketches from the day

2011-10-11T20:52:00.002-05:00

It starts! +5.5 hours

2011-10-09T22:47:00.001-05:00

First batch of these are done! I've taken 5...err...6 more to do throughout October with aspirations to get them done prior to Halloween, but I need to get back on my regular commissions and finish off the rest of my full commission queue first.

2011-10-09T00:51:00.003-05:00

Next!

Also praying mantis scissor feet come back into play, cause Gotta have that SOMEWHERE in this group of commissions, lol Hard to make a basic hyena character look more scary then it already is.

2011-10-08T00:45:00.002-05:00

More designs! I gotta admit i'm a little...exhausted by getting these done and pumping my tired, tired brain for more.

2011-10-06T13:22:00.001-05:00

*moonwalks across*

2011-10-05T21:54:00.000-05:00

Not sure on the feet yet, but the next superbeast commission

2011-10-04T17:04:00.000-05:00

Working on ^ and done! v

2011-10-03T23:21:00.001-05:00

Superbeast commissions went well! Sold out in a half hour. First two sketches that with a little magic pixiedust (read, cocaine or powdered sugar, probably) they'll be done tomorrow as well.

Smoking snake has to be my favorite.

2011-10-03T00:36:00.002-05:00

Working on an example of a little quick thing of commissions I wanna do; I'll open for them tomorrow and post only 5 slots to kinda...monster---ify your character. :D So stay frosty for that one, though I'm not entirely sure just how many folks look at this site.

2011-10-01T16:51:00.002-05:00

I'm gonna finish this picture today even if it frickin' kills me.
+6 hours

2011-09-29T16:36:00.000-05:00

+5 hours

2011-09-28T16:04:00.001-05:00

6 hours. :D

2011-09-23T22:17:00.002-05:00

Commission idea.

Freebie stuff

2011-09-21T21:41:00.001-05:00

2011-09-20T17:12:00.001-05:00

2011-09-19T21:51:00.001-05:00

2011-09-19T00:03:00.002-05:00

I'm literally just about to finish the Bladed Tail Pyro Sheet, have been having some issues with the radio signals from the tower behind my house causing horrible tremors in the tablet's mechanics. makes crisp, thin lines a liiiitle difficult.

Meh, anyways, Had one of those moments where you see the life around you, and you realize that all the hullaballoo and anger and frustration's just not worth it. I care for my roommates, and even if I deeply disagree with somethings in this situation (mostly just one factor), it's just not worth it. I don't have to be angry at my roommates, and I can't blame them for their lifestyle choices, and especially since I have no real say in that sort of thing. It makes a happier household just to kinda....glaze over my frustrations and take them at the same value that I do my folks. That even if shit's happened in the past, and there's still things now that you don't agree with, interacting in a good way when things are good is really the best you can hope for. You're never gonna connect on a deep level, and the comrodery is somewhat surface, but it's still a worthy relationship. It's not great. But it works and it keeps the stress low.

I saw with my mom that I have to be the adult. I don't know how many true "adults" are out there. I see less and less of them mixed in with the world, it seems. Life seems to be separated by those that act, and those that watch. Nothing wrong with either side, but I couldn't see myself in that 'watch' position. Just as most watchers couldn't see themselves in the action. You can choose to go through life and let it poison and infiltrate your mind and your self, bottle it up and carry that burden around as long as you're mentally able to, or you can let it coast off.

So things aren't perfect. I don't know if they'll ever return to the perfect they once were. But i guess I at least got to see and live that for a month. And just like how the death of a loved one steals that normalcy from your life, It forces you to consider a new normalcy instead. It's not the same, but it's not bad. Being more independent from your roommates leads you to develop more hobbies on your own. Take more chances, find new things to make you happy. So in that way it works out. People cling too desperately to what they know.

Sorry to bore you all with rambling, quasi-intellectual thoughts, but there'll be more art tomorrow, I promise.

2011-09-16T17:08:00.001-05:00

2011-09-14T19:14:00.000-05:00

2011-09-13T22:02:00.000-05:00

Oh man, it starts.

2011-09-11T19:58:00.000-05:00

2011-09-09T16:18:00.000-05:00

I'll have this finished for tomorrow :D

2011-09-07T22:33:00.002-05:00

rei doodle (known as a roodle on my computer)

+5 hours

2011-09-06T22:00:00.003-05:00

What I managed to salvage from my effed up computer day. FFF.

2011-09-04T00:10:00.001-05:00

2011-09-02T22:49:00.002-05:00

Nearly done with Khaos's commission, have some good music instead.

2011-09-01T15:11:00.000-05:00

2011-09-01T00:03:00.000-05:00

Style doodle

2011-08-30T17:05:00.001-05:00

First day of work for Khaos's commission; I might try and sketch up the Furry last supper tonight> :D

2011-08-29T00:22:00.001-05:00

Possible next commission. Today starts the first day of my regular work schedual (my roommies are at college, so I can now successfully sit like a troll in the basement all day instead of being SOCIAL an ACTIVE. :D

2011-08-26T17:22:00.000-05:00

2011-08-18T17:52:00.000-05:00

Some planning and work put into harui's :D

2011-08-18T00:44:00.001-05:00

Image is essentially done, I'll finish the last remaining parts tomorrow morning :D

2011-08-12T23:36:00.002-05:00

Some hours put in on Tally's Commission!

Some side stuff

2011-08-10T02:47:00.000-05:00

Next sketch in the queue.

2011-08-07T22:20:00.002-05:00

Little side thing- I need to get back into my groove.

2011-08-03T17:54:00.000-05:00

2011-07-27T19:43:00.002-05:00

Got some time put towards Sekkite's commission.

2011-07-25T03:00:00.000-05:00

Little side-picture, maybe new character; I don't have any blue characters, just a plethora of red ones. Oy.

Finished!

2011-07-21T23:17:00.000-05:00

Should finish with Luring's commission tomorrow; here is Sekkite's commission color rough :D

2011-07-19T22:35:00.000-05:00

IMPOSSIBLE TO WORK IN THE HEAT GOOD GOD

2011-07-18T00:23:00.002-05:00

Worked on this for a while today, de-funked some faces, happier with where it's going. It'll be 105 tomorrow with 80% humidity. SO I'LL BE INSIDE WORKING NO DOUBT. Luring's commission :D

2011-07-15T17:23:00.001-05:00

Work done on Luring's picture:

An updated on the Cempe Picture:

About...other stuff.

2011-07-13T19:07:00.002-05:00

Not going to be any pictures in this blog post. I rarely use this thing for actual...blogging, besides daily updates on projects and what have you. So if you're looking for the art stuff, it's everywhere but this post.Art stuff will continue. Have a blob of personality/internal dialogue until then.

I just kinda need a place to vent. I don't know if this really counts as venting; i'm not angry. I'm just a whole lot of confused and a little sickened, i guess. I want to get it off my chest, but I don't wanna talk about it. i don't want pity. I don't want people to say how sad they are to hear about this, I just wanna...speak. I want to express. That's it, I guess.

I'll get to the point, then ramble on about it afterwards.

My grandmother is dying. I don't feel sad. That's the synopsis. I'm not mad at her, we've had our clashes in the past, we're not BFF's or anything, but I just don't feel...anything. And maybe since this is only my second grandparent dying that I don't know how to feel; my grandfather passed in 1996 when I was 9. We were close, he used to help me with my grades (by paying me 5 bucks for every A I got, sweet deal, eh?) and he died almost instantly. That way there was a lot of shock, a lot of disbelief. It just...happened. But this time, it's not instant. It is a very...very drawn out and painful thing. My grandmother smoked for 40 years. She got COPD, Cardio...o...I dunno what it means, but it's emphysema. She's been on oxygen for near 10 years i'd bet, but she was on it for a while due to her own accords. (aka, the doctor told her she didn't need and and she got it anyways) and we were pretty sure it was unnecessary.

I visited her yesterday. Drugged out of her mind, nearly in a medical coma. All she'd do is shuffle her legs around, try and pull out her fecal tube with her feet, and just look... I dunno, horrible. you'd go to hold her hand, and she'd pull away from you. I was there for an hour and a half, and she was conscious for all of 1 second of that. Even that's debatable. She can't hold her own eyes open. She's told us that if she flatlines, she does not want to be kept alive. She just lays there dying. They take her off the ventilator every day to see if she can pull out of it, and she starts spasming and pounding her fists like she's drowning. I didn't see it myself, but my aunt and my dad, which have been at the hospital nearly constantly, fill me in on all the gruesome details because they're freaked out. I don't blame them.

But standing there, watching her kinda struggle...I wasn't sad. I can't help but keep that notion that she did this to herself. That she smoked for all those years, that she is the sole person in charge of those consequences. But it's not just that; She's had a hard life. Her father/ my great grandfather, apparently tried to kill her and my great uncle in a psychotic rage. That she herself was in a mental facility for 3 months after thinking my dad and aunt were the devil, and set fire to pillows. But that's not what gets me.

She's the ultra religious one in the family. It was creepy the way my dad put it> "She has told everyone that she knows she's going to heaven, that she's excited to see her brother and mother. But she's completely terrified about what happens afterwards. The fear's getting to her." She's terrified to die. As a person who is also fucking terrified to die, and what comes afterwards, i mean, shit, she's the one that's supposed to have accepted and be excited for her end. But she's not. And when the people who so fullheartedly believe in an afterlife, to have such huge doubts..i mean...shit. And that's what gets me to cry and feel something. That notion. And I feel absolutely horrible for being able to connect on that tangent alone. Not that she's my grandmother. Not that she's the other "arty" person in the family...sorta...(she uses stencils for things, i don't count it but she does) Not that she gave me a huge gift for my graduation; the only thing I connect with her is seeing her as a sort of stunted, sad life, and that's how her story wraps up. She never HAD that great moment and great part of her life. She's gonna come into this world pointlessly and leave just as pointlessly. THAT terrifies me. and its' horrible. I know full well how horrible that is to feel that way about your own grandmother.

I'm empty on the inside. I hear the news that they're gonna pull her trach tube this weekend, and I felt nothing. I felt bad for my dad, but nothing. I do, at least, feel anger that my mom is kinda being a douche about this whole thing. The first time she was in the hospital a month or two ago, she was completely understanding. This time, one of the last things she said yesterday was "I bed you she's gonna kick it when you're moving out" (among talking shit like "yeah, well, maybe don't eat cigarettes for a living" or "she's getting what she deserves" ) Wow. way to be a jerk, mom. I don't care what BS argument you had, that you don't like each other. Have some fucking respect for the dead. Or the nearly dead. Wanna know the punchline? You win. She dies. Do you feel better yet? Is your life complete?

I just feel...there. That's accurate. I'll probably start feeling something at the funeral, but honestly, it'll be the end to a long struggle. It'll be hopeful motivation for my next roomies to quit smoking. It'll be the end to a very long, dwindling life. I guess it doesn't get more black and white then that.

2011-07-13T10:29:00.000-05:00

Working on fixing up an image from over a year ago

2011-07-11T18:56:00.000-05:00

de-stress painting of Cempe :D

2011-07-10T23:57:00.000-05:00

HA, just in time! All done!